I am joining some great people in their talk about family expansion!
When we decided to start a family, we had a few bumps in the road. One devastating miscarriage and months of trying later we found out we were going to have our little princess. She was just 9 months old when I knew I wanted to start trying again. I love having babies, I loved being pregnant, and I was ready. I also knew in my heart, I was going to have a hard time. So, once again, months of trying and 2 miscarriages later, my doctor gave me the option of fertility drugs. I decided I needed one more month of trying naturally before I would consider any extra help. That was the magical month.
I was feeling terrible, my stomach was hurting, and I was so tired. So one morning before work I took the pregnancy test. It was positive! I was so happy as I headed into work that day. I had been through a lot, so I was cautious as always. Later that day I started spotting. I thought I was back to square one. So the next day I was back at the doctors office doing the all to familiar hormone levels. Thankfully, they turned out okay and our little man became a part of the family. Throughout the pregnancy I remember wondering how could I love this little guy like I love my princess. I would tell Andy that the little guy could be his baby and Em would be mine. I was trying to predesignate favorites. What a bad mom I may sound like, but it all changed. The day he was born was the first night I ever was away from Em and she was on my mind a lot, but I was totally in love and happy to have the perfect boy in my arms. I loved them both, differently but equally.
Now, as my little man is 18 months old, I have been feeling the urge once again to add to the family. Our only reservation is silly but practical. My car doesn't fit three car seats. So soon, Em will be in a booster and three will fit. Our only argumant will disappear, and we will have to see what happens.